EXTRA, EXTRA READ ALL ABOUT IT........ an official DUE DATE has been set!!! December 17, a scheduled C-Section has been put into place, unless of course these girls decide to come sooner! On December 17 I will be 34 weeks which is technically full term with triplets, because you take 2 weeks off of a normal 40 week gestational period per kiddo! (I have learned a LOT since being pregnant with multiples:) So the kicker in all this is the babies were measuring close to 2 lbs. each this week!!!! Which puts them in the 64th Percentile-- that is 64% larger than average SINGLE babies at this point!! THANK YOU JESUS!!! This is so encouraging to me, but also scares me for how big they will be in 9 more weeks, but when I think of that I am reminded to just rest in the good news of today and not worry about where we will be in 9 more weeks! It's hard to wrap my head around that fact that in 9 weeks or less these girls will be here, but I can not WAIT to hold them in my arms, and kiss their little cheeks, and begin life together as a family of 6! I know it's going to be so hard, and I get scared just thinking about how it will all work, but I am reminded daily that this is a blessing and a huge one that God has called us to and entrusted us with. Please continue to pray for their health and mine, and also for our heart as a family. We appreciate it more than you could ever know, and know that your prayers are being answered with each day that these girls are continuing to grow.
So for all of you who read to keep up with the triplets, there is your update. For anyone else wishing to continue to read, a warning that these are just some personal thoughts that have been in my head for the past couple of years really, and they deal with our family and you may get bored reading :)
I have read this book called "The Missing Piece" by Shel Silverstein both when I was young, and recently too cause Gray has it. It is a picture book about a little circle creature missing a piece and he tries all these pieces on to see if they fit him, until he finally finds a match....(eventually in the book he lets the piece go, because he realizes he is happier without it, that is NOT the part that I am referring to) Well I use the analogy "The Missing Piece" in some of my life scenarios, for example I refer to Christ as my missing piece, my husband, and then Tigh and I as a couple have referred to Gray as our "missing piece."
Over the past 5 years that I have been with Tigh there has been a piece of him that I never had the privilege of knowing and that is his father Larry. Tigh's dad lost a battle with alcoholism, when Tigh was younger. I think about Larry ALL the time. Whenever we get together at holidays, I wonder what it would be like if he was there, and what he would think of who his 2 sons have become. On our wedding day, I couldn't help but think about him and wonder if he would approve of Tigh's choice for a wife. :) (I hope so) I look at my husband and wonder what traits or characteristics he carries that are like his father, and then I look at my son and wonder what traits, characteristics or resemblance does he take after his grandfather? After leaving the last ultrasound of the triplets this week I was driving home listening to a song that just wrecked my heart with who my husband is and who his father was that I have never met. What would Larry think about this wild journey that we are embarking on-- TRIPLETS! I know he is watching down on us, and there really have been so many times that I just feel his presence, the presence of a man I have never met but have heard goofy stories about, a man that I know loved his sons the best he could, a man I know that struggled with a battle that was hard to fight, until it got the best of him.
I look at my husband every night after he works his 12 hour day and hits the pillow exhausted. I watch how he loves our son so incredibly well and will rock him for what has recently become hours before bed, because Tigh knows this time is fleeting.... I marvel at the way he is patient with me and serves me so well during this time that I can't do much and he doesn't get frustrated with me, even though I know I would have already lost it 100x if I were him! I know Tigh learned from his dad's mistakes, (which is why I LOVE the lyrics in the song I was listening to when it says "You are so much more than your father's son") but I also KNOW that Larry had an amazing heart despite his demons with addiction, and I think that heart lives on in my husband. The lyrics of the song also say "It's not your fault, No It's not your fault I put this heavy heart in you. I put this heavy heart in you." I love that my husband's heart is heavy and breaks for the things that break Chirst's heart, I love that my husband is as compassionate and loving to people as he is, I love that he is a man of integrity like no other that I have met... and for all of those reasons I can't help but love Larry, a man I never met but I know "heirloomed" part of his spirit into my husband, my son, and soon to be daughters.
So yet again, I share another song. I have always felt like music can portray what I feel in my heart so much better then the words that I can spit out myself... This song is called Heirloom and it reminds me of my husband who I love beyond measure and can't believe I get to do this wild ride with him, and it reminds me of his dad Larry a "missing piece" who I never got to meet, but I know I will one day and despite not knowing him now, I love him and look at my family and know that he is a part of it.
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